29.01.11

Yesterday, went out to take a passport sized photo of arissa. Cause ibu (mum-in-law) is coming on sunday night to take the picture and birth certificate. Ibu wants to make arissa's passport. Okay, So yesterday, hubby decided to visit kakak nurul. So we went to tampines, settle arissa's thingy and then we went to kakak's house. Ariz, the entertainer. Hahaha. Everyone was entertained by him :) Anyway, it's a crowd at kakak's house. Felt a little awkward. Got to meet kak lin too :) Hmm. Didn't take pictures, again.

I have a stupid bad habit, of not taking pictures!! Haiyah, need to get used to it one day. Hahaha. Nevermind.
** Still thinking about the pit, not sure if we want to go or not.

Random posts: Comparing & contrasting. Stop doing that. You are living in what age?? This is not the time to do that. Really, i can't stand this type of people. For your information, by comparing and contrasting, you are not doing any good to anyone EVEN to yourself. Cause you will make your life miserable by trying to be the best among all and you will be upsetting the people around you. Remember, happiness doesn't come easy. So don't lose it.

** Yeah, planning to go anywhere, wherever which is possible. But can't seem to think of a place. Haiyah. Want to bring ariz out to have some fun or he will be bored to death for the next few days. Hahaha. Poor him. See how it goes for tomorrow. Or else, just forget it. Lagipon, hubby needs to book in by 6pm. What the Shit!!

That's all folks. Byebye~~

Dilemma

Eyoooo! Okay, it's not a big deal, i mean like so BIG dilemma like a BIG decision making in my life. It's just that im still confused of what to buy for valentines day - for HIM. I want to buy for him a perfume but i bought 1 for him last year but unfortunately, he broke it. He wants a watch but he needs the perfume. So a want and a need.. Hmm.. Yea!! Figure it out. Cool, by typing, i figured out something. Yea! Okay, that's it. Thanks alot blog, you helped me ;)

Anyway, hubby came back, tonight and is helping to take care of arissa. However, he needs to book in on sunday cause he got detail on monday till 2359. It means, he will be back, real late. Shit! Anyway, i need to endure this right? Yar, what to do. 

I don't know whether it's just me or my grudges. I've been feeling alot of hatred in myself. I guess i need to relax myself. And needs to have some peace. Ibu (mum-in-law) is making arissa's passport soon, that's a good sign. So i can go back JB on weekends, to have a peace of mind. Really. Too much pressure, here. I need to throw away the hatred, so i can live in peace. :)

Okay that's it for today. Nothing interesting to post.

Peace out peeps.

Thoughts...

Yeah, i've been thinking about it very much, lately.. What's the thing best to get for hubby - valentine's day. Yeah, i don't know what's the best thing that i want to buy for him. I've limited budget. He didn't know anything about this. I've bought him, a wallet, slippers, shirt and i don't think i want to buy the same things again. I guess i'm gong to buy him a watch. Yeah, i got it. But, i didn't know if i want to buy it or not. Still in 'confusing' mode, Well nevermind.  Still got two weeks to worried about that :)

Anyway, hubby is not at home - as usual, DUTY!! Wahh!! How i hate that, seriously sia. That place, his camp, is a place worse than shit seyh! Fuck la. Woah! And i can't imagine during CNY.. Omg! The chinese gets 8 days leave, so what's that going to mean? The malays have to do everything in the camp?? Oh fuck! That place lacks humans okay. That's why hubby needs to go for duty, or even LAST minute duty. Really, FUCK them. Ohh What A Fate! Anyway, 1 more year to go! Jiayou!!

Random post : I really want to puke seeing ugly girls trying to look pretty in the pictures, ESPECIALLY the fat trying her best to look thin in the pictures, the ugly face trying to look cute or pretty or even HORNY in the pictures, and this part is the best - despite their efforts to do everything they can to look good in the pictures, they still need to edit to look even more prettier! And guess what, in reality they are damn fucking ugly, really, turn me off! But this type of girls, exists almost everywhere. It's not that im affected, it's just that i'm turned off or even feel like puking!! It's just that i felt disgusted. I guess it's not me alone. People who can't be natural in pictures = they are ugly in reality. Period.

What's next?? Ohh yar, my dear daughter, i don't what's up with you these days. You are really trying to be difficult depriving me of my rest and sleep and even a lil bit of time to entertain your brother. I guess either it's something wrong with you or you are about to change, i mean like your 2 months is coming, Yeah! So fast!

And, atlast, uncle helmy came to visit you kids. Hahaha. Helmy was shocked when he saw ariz could walk already. It's been a long time since uncle helmy played with ariz. When i'm at jb, uncle helmy would pamper ariz to the fullest, play with him, feed him etc. Yeah. Uncle helmy has visited arissa too. Atlast.

Okay that's it, Arissa prangai kepe! it's 0222hrs now! Damn arissa!
Logging off ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Good news

The good news is Sidek could make it to polytechnic. Congratulations to him. <3

Job, where are you? I need you badly. Haha. I was supposed to work at the csc, that time i updated. However, Fyt said i have to wait till the manager call me. No sign of it. Katy said the same thing to when she applied for that job. Hais. Nevermind. Maybe i'll try my luck in retail sales. How i hate that job. I want to go back as a waitress but the job is damn tiring. Ohh my. Let me try my luck in job hunting.

Well, Isha i love you. Hahaha. I dont know why, but i love her!

Hubby, i love you too. I know you are trying your best to prove to me that you love me and i can see changes, and i definitely love you, for who you are, whether you are fat or thin or muscular, i just love you and your heart. Mwahhs..

Arrissa Insyirah, is now 1 month old. And is GROWING. Hahaha.

Syah Ariz, now talks alot, knows how to walk, talk, dance and even SING. Can you believe that. Hahaha. Dj got us falling in love again, by usher. Weird urhh.. Not the whole song, of course. I love him soo  much.

Well, this sunday, the girls asked me out. Katy will be there, and i wish to be there too. She will bring her hubby and son along too. Hahaha, i want to meet fathur cause i have not carry him yet. That time when katy visited me in the hospital with her son, i was in pain. Cant move too much and im afraid that when i hold her son, i will dropped him. Hahaha. Paranoid. I hope and wish that i could meet you girls. And ainina is back in singapore! Hahaha, Cant wait to meet her, Mat salleh celop! Wakkaka.

Okay taaadaaa..! Have to look after arissa now and waiting for hubby to come back. I love him. Mwahss!!

Patience is a virtue

Can i be angry??

To Hubby:
How i wish i could smack the questions i had in mind to your face? I've been trying my very best to keep everything to myself. You know what? Communication is important in marriage life. However your problem is, you cant have a heart to heart talk. Its going to destroy us. The thing is, i love you, i cant deny that and i hate myself for that. You knew that i cant live being cheated and lied. But i have to, now. Its hurting me so badly that im going crazy. I have three things in mind.
1. Ignore whatever you are doing and continue being hurt.
2. Do whatever that you are doing so you have a feel of what i feel.
3. Have a heart to heart talk.

Hahha. Judging from the way things are, option 1 and 3 are out of question. Option 2 seems so cruel but if it makes you realise then its not that cruel. Wakakaka. Okay i sound like an evil wife. Hahaha.

Okay, i think for now, i just keep quiet. Maybe when the time is right then i decide okay. Life is like that. You have a few choices, just choose it, thinking of all consequences and do it. That's life. We just have to live it whether we like it or not. We need to move on rather than fretting non stop. Fullstop.

To my mum:
Yeah i know life is hard for you. I need my own life too you know. You want to find a house and ask my siblings to live with me. You are shirking your responsibility. Its not that i wont take my siblings. Yar, when life is hard up, they are my siblings no matter what and i'll take them in. But mom, you wont need to feel the pinch of bringing up your children till they are married. You wont know how they succeed in life one day. Dont tell me, when they do, you want to claim all the credits after dumping them on me. From what i know, you fight with my father for their custody 1 year ago. But now, you are so tired living with them. You have to sacrifice alot as a single mother. Why cant you have that mindset? You only think about your cyber friends who you never meet and trust them more than your children. Okay fine. I dont mind. You find a 3 room flat as soon as possible and i'll willingly take them in okay? But dont forget that your children are still schooling and you have the responsibility to take care of their welfare. Do what you say, i'll wait for it to happen okay. For how long you can depend on people. :))

The stupid me as usual. I watched a video on youtube about caesarean. I was scaring myself looking at the video. I closed the window after one second of watching it. Ohh myy, its sooooo discouraging :( I dont want. I want to deliver normally. How they will dig their hand inside my stomach just sent shivers down my spine. How ugly will my stomach look later on.. Ugly.. Haish..

Dear unborn baby, please do your job inside mama's tummy. Please turn your head to the right position so mama will deliver you normally. I love you. Im still curious about your gender.. Hmmm..

Hees. Okay.. Thats for it now.. Update if there is anything. Byebye.

Pain

The pain is worsening! Ohh god.. Its killing me. Plusplus ARIZ -.-" Hope i can make it till the 13th.

Anyway, Its just a random post. Can anybody tell me or explain to me the true meaning of honesty in a relationship? Maybe its me or its him who gets confused. I wonder.. Hahaha. I have overcome many obstacles in life and i truly knew what hardships in family life means. I know that i can go through this with my beloved and children. As for relationship~

Sidek is working~ Busy working at topshop at knightsbrige. Okay i didnt know where that is at first. Wakaka. Its a new mall. Isha is being a great help to me, helping me to take care of ariz.. Lagi2 aku nih tgh sarat. Haish. My mom.. Never change. She has always been like that; ohh dammit, she turned worse. Yeah. If i could say it straight to her face, i would. She never realises and learns from her mistake.. I really wish someone can knock some sense into her that she is being cheated. And that her priority is her children and not the guys she never met. Oh gosh. I just hope somebody would help her with this. As for my father, i just hope he gets what he wants. Get to achieve whatever he wants to achieve as he was deprived of it when he was a kid. I never blame abah or ibu for the things that happen. To ibu: Dont push your responsibilities to me when you are in dire straits.

Some pictures of knightsbridge at orchard road :))

Okayokay. Fine. Its a random and boring post. Hahaha. Will update okays.. :))